She is not only beautiful but also good character. She is the girl of my dream that I met too many years and had many truly memorable souvenirs with.. Although we have known each other for long time, but I am getting stuck how to upgrade my status with her from friendship to relationship. On the contrary, this long-lasted friendship is getting bad to worse; because of my jealousy, selfish, misunderstanding, and impetuous. Sometimes, I want to get rid of these negative points, but I couldn't ; I am wondering why I can't change myself... Oh, my love !!! everyone often admires us a good people and should be a well-matched couple.
When I look back, I appreciate how much we hit it off quickly and become true soulmates. I know we are bosom friends. But when my love to you started to involve into our friendship, I realized immediately this friendship must confront insufferable. Personally, I think the way I did to you is very rude and impolite... I receive many advices if something goes wrong, I should maintain my friendship...... I want to shout out that I can't do it... It is very tough and hard to do for me personally. Now I seem to live in the darkness of my life.
Nobody knows what I am thinking of her, but everybody knows only my weaknesses. I must confess that I am very poor in the relationship matters. I really don't know how to please and care my lover. As I know myself so clearly, I like only talking frank, open, and straight. Sometimes I have a yearning for very lovely and happy family with her. But it is too late...! What a pain! I should be so lucky ! If I am comparing to the other guys for everything they have are not much better than me counting from family background, professional career, academic background, to my characters and personality except my height. However, I admit that I am desperately shortage of love knowledge and know-how about the girl wants and needs. Honestly, this is my big fault that I had tried to learn but so far it doesn't work out.
I must admit that I surrender for this attempt. I used to think one day I will get it. Unfortunately, my attempt is in vain and the result turns differently from what I would expect. Hope that after this dark cloud is over, everything will be fine... Wish you luck and meet your true partner in your life!
